Something good this way comes

  1Q84 was another intriguing novel by Haruki Murakami that brings people into the perspectives of 2 characters. One was an assassin and the other is an aspiring author whose boss wants him to commit fraud. A very interesting novel that I have read in a long time. Not that I have much time to read unless its the holidays...


  One important lesson to be learnt from the book is about making choices. As a very fickle-minded person, choices are hard to make, but the choices that we do make affect our outcomes. Sometimes, I wish a parallel universe would blend in with ours and over-ride all the wrong choices we have made in our lives, but that has Schrodinger's cat written all over...


  Hmm... What if some choices were made differently?

A weird, mind boggling novel =/

2011 in a nutshell

Woah...Another year has passed and 2011 seems to have zoomed by. People do grow and mature as time passes but they still retain the qualities of friendship and some semblance of childishness that I really hope stays with them forever (myself included =p).


2011, a time of utter craziness of mugging and cramming sessions, and the worst is yet to come =/ Sometimes, certain people reveal a side of themselves you would never expect and the longer a time you spend with them, the more you come to like (or dislike) them hahaha... "It takes all kinds to make a world and we revolve around each other" is a mantra I have always lived by so we may not have the fate to be particularly involved with someone's life, but I always felt irked by certain things that people do. HOWEVER, I have always hated for feeling this way so it has always been an internal conflict. I have the eternal need to please everyone, and everyone to be pleased by what I do. Just a character trait or flaw I guess, depending on how one sees it?


I still have not found love in a hopeless place... =( 


I wonder how love feels like, to wake up everyday and appreciate this person for being in this world?? Hmmm...


Honestly, when everyone starts to get busy with own lives, I shudder to think what happens in 10 years or maybe even 2 years later after graduation? Work is keeping everyone busy like bees that it gets harder to meet up...to catch up...


The best thing that happened to me this year is a trip to Spain with my godparents!! Thank you godpa and godma for the wonderful opportunity to tour Spain and Portugal with you. It was a very interesting trip to have a glimpse at another part of the world that feels so distant. Churches, mosques, snow, sunshine, an unworldly combination in one place. No wonder that it is the second most visited country in Europe. The best part for me is Cordoba, an ancient Greek ruin buried below an Islamic mosque conquered by a Christian church, showing the changing faces of civilisation... Fascinating!

Muslim influences at the boundary of a church wall

The interior prayer hall where you can't even see the end!

This is a chapel choir inside the mosque!

Not forgetting a family trip to Penang, eat, shop sleep zzz... Family trips are so important as it is a rare opportunity for my parents to relax and enjoy themselves =D

Only my dad is hiding....

So I guess its onward and forward to 2012!! Be it another amazing year and bad occurrences be few =D


"And I don't want to fade away...but the day goes so quickly" *Automatic Loveletter : Fade Away*

Sentosa

Sigh.... I can't get down to writing my term paper but I can get down to writing a blog =p

Yesterday, I saw the most beautiful landscape ever... The sun setting over sentosa with the cable cars as a backdrop. In essence, it was the the most glorifying picture I had seen in a really really long time. The sun was perfect that day, so much so it gave me a sunburn, but that's beside the point. It was uplifting to be in company, not so bonded yet... But still it's company =D

I have never felt so relaxed in a really long time, thinking and pondering over silly musings of the world when there are so many more wondrous things in nature. Sometimes, people have let you down, things don't go your way. However there is always a bigger picture out there, to really grasp the things everyone should enjoy most in life.

I enjoy the great outdoors alot! Not outfield... Outdoors! =) You feel like you have finally controlled time, to soak in the sun, sea and life...

I would never forget, a beautiful sunset...

As you grow older, you will realise how complicated the world actually becomes.. I have always admired the innocence of a child and how some people still carry it on into adulthood. Adults have to worry about trust issues, moral issues, so why can't we just let some of these barriers slide? We are always out to protect ourselves from others and end up hurting those who are out to protect you.

Sometimes, I am just as confused as to what to do, or what I really want out of life. Mostly, I lack courage to pursue what I really want in life... I want to seek out my happiness but have never taken the first steps to get them.

I really wish the world could be a less complicated place but I know in reality it isn't. I want to hold on to the things I love but they are slowly slipping away... The world continues to move on but I haven't, and that is what's bothering me. I hate to be self-loathing, how ironic is that, I just want the happiness I thought I had found 3 years ago, maybe even 1 year ago when life was interesting, unbelievable as it may sound, the air force was interesting to see the emotions and interactions played out.

University, on the other hand, has dealt me a losing hand... I hope life is simple and that is more than I could ever have wished for... What happened to easily making friends, fraternising with the enemies and have a good laugh afterwards once they become friends? Now, I feel I am on the other side of the fence, jealous of others who have found good companionship. Am I taking for granted for the people I have met? Or am I just afraid I know they are going to drift away sooner or later...

Certain things are juz left alone

Certain things can be just left alone....

The only thing that makes me sad is when someone else is even sadder...

Hope certain things...

We can actually still talk...

Sometimes...

I hate myself because I can't make someone else happier...

I really look like a fool...

To think that I could even try...

When I know I am not worthy...

Some people can find their happiness...

I can never find mine...

Long and way overdue....

Haha...Been too long since I posted here...Another sunday with nothing to do so...

The transition from working life to school life is pretty intense and drastic! Imagine if you have never ever touched your books for like...2 years plus?? The cobwebs have all started to acculmulate inside the brain!

The EDB working stint has been quite enjoyable! What with the 1 entire floor dedicated to a pantry! The long lunch breaks...meeting people working around there, a very gd boss! Must really thank viviana for all the guidance there, hope she has less stress!

Coming into uni has been a life changing experience (for better or for worse... more like the latter =/) and a hectic transition to be thrown back into poring over books again! It has only been half a semester and my notes are enough to fill 2 entire files!!! This is a really^10 crazy course that I have landed myself into... It seriously doesn't help when everyone around you wants to be the creme le crop =(...

Timetable literally sucks....2 days wif 6 hr breaks...2 days wif only 2 hr breaks...and thursday is supposed to be half-day but it never feels like it... Life is revolving around sch...which is super sad...

Everyone else is kinda busy with all their stuff so I hardly get to see anyone else during the weekends... So monotonus that I am dying! =@@@ Swamped with projects, presentations and tests for the past 2 weeks.. Totally screwed my tests! Can't join CCAs either...cause I will most likely reach home at 10pm! Next day lectures all start at 8am!! My gawd...a miracle I can actually make it this far... =/

Seeing the day to day lives of every one around me.. I realise what they mean that Sg is a paper chasing society... Everyone just wants the coverted DEGREE that will land a job, get good money, start a family and die happy.. But what is happiness in death when you can't have happiness when you are alive? Haha everyday I try to convince myself that all this is worth it.. but deep down I will always know its not!! Honestly..this is not what I want... My dream is to travel the world, take in the spectacular sights and sounds, appreciate the different cultures and mixes, see the beauty that is always there!

Again...dreams are dreams...and without money...what is there to think about?? I really want to fufill this dream..maybe 20-30 years down the road? I wish to study overseas but my parents will not allow..=/ Neither are the financial means possible... Have to seize any opportunities that I will get now... =)

On a personal note, fate decides who you will meet and I conclude I have absolutely no fate! No courage plus no fate makes it bad..really bad...Sighz...

I dunno but I am really scared of loneliness...sometimes you do not get along well with the people around you but I really want to try...Again..no courage, no fate.... How to get pass the 4 years???

Random #2

Starting my new temp job at EDB tomorrow!!! Nervous, Sianz, and ZOMG feelings at the same time.... =)

Always check my pants in case I forget to zip it up =)

Weather is becoming like a suana now.. Can believe world is ending in 2012 =)

Never eat 2 steamboats in a row... =)

Suck at tennis... Still thinks its like playing badminton =)

Glad there is hope =)